Just realized it’s been over six months since my last health related update here, and figured it’s time to make one to keep track.
Noticed an hour ago that my internet is slooooow. I did a speed test and download stream is only 2.2MB when it should be 10MB. The upload speed is normal. Why does it always have to be the end of the week?! :/ I’ve never had internet connection problems at the start of the week so it always takes forever to fix them :/
Checked my ISP’s info page and there’s been G3 and G2 speech data transfer problems in the town next over affecting people there since noon that they’re currently working on to fix, and it logically should not affect anyone’s ADSL here but from past experience I know that it somehow can, so I don’t want to report it until the page says it fixed so that I can if my problem fixes itself along with it. Which it being 3pm now means tomorrow if it doesn’t, and tomorrow being Friday means they’re not going to work on it until some day next week :/
EDIT – 3,5 hours later : well, wouldn’t you know – the page says the problems in mobile data transfers in the town next over which shouldn’t affect fixed ADSL here, is now repaired and so is my internet! I don’t get it but as long as it works…
I had the check up with the gastroenterologist today – the end result that I get to go in for a 3rd colonoscopy. Oh yay. Calprotectin which has been all up and down over the last 3,5 years is up to around 1150 now which is my highest ever (before it was 650) and the gastroenterologist says it can’t be because of byle mal-absorbson. 1150 sounds high but I’ve read and it can be several thousands – even over 10000 – in “serious” bowel diseases such as Crohn’s Disease. So I doesn’t overly worry me, more like makes me curious.
The colonoscopy may or may not reveal a cause – he says the Calprotectin indicates could be a tear in mucous membrane somewhere in the bowel, but wondered about the 2010 colonoscopy didn’t show anything if so because diarrhea had been going on for a little over a year at that point – based on the previous colonoscopies. And then, even though a second capsule endoscopy may be in order if the colonoscopy doesn’t show anything. Even though a capsule endoscopy was just done in February. Fun fun fun. Argh!
Fucking SCREAMING children behind me. Fucking SCREAMING children in front me. Fucking SHRIEKING baby above me. Fucking MASSIVE headphones on my ears and tv ramped up to 9th I still can’t hear anything but FUCKING SCREAMING CHILDREN FOR FIVE STRAIGHT FUCKING HOURS :<
Next time I’m moving, if it’s an apartmen building/complex it’s one where lives only people over 50 because at least majority of them won’t have children under 12!
I haven’t slept well the past two nights – hardly at all. I still dream every night, and when I sleep badly, seems like I remember the dreams a lot better than when I sleep well :/ Feeling tired and unenergetic, want to go and try to sleep but I know I won’t be able to and that it’s best wait for the night. Which is bloody 9 hours away :/
I’m trying to read Liza Marklund’s latest I got from the library, Panttivanki (Du gamla, du fria). I’ve liked all the other books by Marklund I’ve read, but I’m having a lot of problems with this one – I’ve been trying for at least three weeks, and I’m only at 81 pages Normally, it’d take me maybe three or four days to read the entire damn book. A week at the most!
The main character is a Annika, an investigating journalist. She investigates and exposes human trafficing, corruption, crimes, abuse of power, injustice, evil, the truth, that sort of thing. She’s not a snob, interested in maintaining the correct image or putting out airs. She’s not political. Her husband, Thomas, is all of those, and more.
(The rest is behind the cut because of spoilers for Panttivanki (Du gamla, du fria)).
It’s 1am and I’m up. Again. I can’t sleep. This has been going on since about mid-week last week At first I couldn’t sleep at all, but the last two nights it got a little better – I still had bitch of a time falling asleep, but once I did - after getting up a couple of times and after rolling around for hours – I slept okay …ish.
It’s 3.30am and I just got inside. The carbage can shelter located in the corner of our parking lot burned down completely. No human losses, but one car was completely destroyed and several suffered heat damages. Including mine.
I was sleeping with my window open, and through the sleep heard noise I thought was rain and smelled smoke. Thought there were people smoking near by – but then started to wonder why they took so long to finish and finally woke up completely. I thought the rain sounded weird and there was also the smell of smoke, not very strong but still – I pulled something on and went out to my small back yard to check. It wasn’t raining so I went towards the parking lot, thinking maybe some kids or drunks were playing with fire there, until I could see around the corner of the building and there was the shelter, completely on fire. Nobody was in sight and I had no idea if it had been called in. So I ran right back in get my cell phone (it was recharging) and called 112 (our 911). Somebody had already called it in and the fire brigade and the police were on their way.
I got some more clothes on (I had only put on a short sleeved shirt and trousers, with bare feet in sandals) and went back out, this time from my front door. Now there were other people gathering there too, watching. My car was only two empty car slots away from the burning building and there was nothing between it and the fire. But it wasn’t on fire. I saw that the car closest to the shelter, only centimeters away from one of the shelter walls, was completely on fire.
I wondered about driving my car away from its slot, along with some other people whose cars were in the other row but a little further away from the fire than mine. In the end none of us dared to. The two slots that were empty usually aren’t, and I think the owners were away from home with their cars because I didn’t see them or their cars anywhere. That’s incredibly lucky, because the first slot is also centimeters away from the wall (you can’t get it from that side because no grown up can fit in between the car and the wall, that’s how small it is on both sides) and if the car had been there, it’d have completely burned down too just like the other car on the other side. And the car in the second slot would have been damaged too.
It took maybe five minutes for the fire brigade to arrive, but it felt like forever. When they did, they got it under control fast, I thought. The walls were still standing, the roof was gone I think, and they pulled down the whole structure I guess for safety reasons. There’s now a pile of wet burned wood where the shelter used to be.
Apparently the fire spread to the whole structure quickly. One girl had come home from work about 10 minutes before, and there were no signs of fire at the time.
I texted the pertinen information to my Mom before I wrote this up; didn’t want to her learn about it in the news in the morning or anything like that and to tell that I’m okay.
I know I’ve ranted about this before but it keeps coming up every once in a while so…
Is it so damn hard to crasp that people actually exist who don’t give a flying fuck about shipping and pairings and OTPs – and to consider that just maybe not all wallpapers featuring two characters in it mean that I, the maker, must ship that pairing? Oh, and better yet, then get apoplectic because I have dared to make wallpapers pairing – your word, not mine – Character A not only with Character B but also with other people????????? Stupid shippers. Oh, and while we’re at it… no, “Todd smut” doesn’t automatically mean it’s Todd/Sheppard. There are other characters than Sheppard (and McKay), you know, or I can even make up !GASP! an OC or two if I want to. I don’t like Sheppard (yes !GASP! that is possible!) You don’t want me to write Sheppard; you would not like the result. And nor would I.
On other news. Watched Rachel Weisz’s The Whistleblower today. A very good, but hard movie to watch. But also a very necessary one.
Amazing Rachel Weisz was closed by its owner a few days ago due to personal reasons. She first gave me the chance to download everything I wanted. Which I did, and have uploaded to my Rachel site. It was a fabulous RW site,and I’m so glad Natalie didn’t just close it – it’d been a huge loss to fandom.
But it made me feel like a Borg – AMR was the fifth fansite (although 1st RW fansite) I have taken over when the original owner could not maintain it anymore. I’m very glad to be trusted and able to do that, but at the same time I’m feeling like I’m the Borg and take over all my favorite fansites/subjects. Sometimes it would be great to just be one of many, not the only, fan producing content (by which I mean photos, video clips, wallpapers, screencaps, icons etc. things that require actually making or scanning content). Luckily there is at least one still more or less up-to-date fansite for Rachel. So at least I’m not literally the only one this time. But yeah.
Two of my machines broke down this week: first on Sunday, the pipe thingy that brings water into the washing machine and the television on Tuesday
Mom’s boyfriend was able to fix the pipe, although he had to hunt down a couple of extra parts because one of the parts that came with the new pipe didn’t fit with the faucet. The washing machine is almost 25 years old, and this is the first thing that needed fixing. Still works great, despite being so old *knocks on wood*
Then something broke in the television – there’s no picture, just a black screen and a narrow light/color line about in the middle of the screen. The audio works normally.
The television is also old, 15 years going on 16. If it can’t be fixed, I won’t have the money to buy a new one until I get a job that lasts for more than a month or two. I don’t even want to think about what to do about the television at the moment – whether to try and have it fixed or not. I also can’t get it fixed if that costs too. And I’m not even sure it’s not waste of money to get it fixed now (assuming that whatever it is that’s broken and that fixing would cost what ‘m prepared to pay to fix it)… it’s been repaired once before already and maybe having one or other thing brake soon there after. It’s starting to be that old. Might be better in the long run just write it off now, and buy a good new television the next time I have money enough to big purchases. I can’t ask Mom to buy me one as a birthday or Christmas present, considering how much she’s already helping me with my meds. And even if I could, these new LCD or whatever televisions are so different from this old generation that I’m familiar with, that I’d have to research them anyway for a couple of months just to learn what’s good and what’s not, and whether they all support full HD already (a couple of years back, I know they didn’t even though they were advertised as HD ready) because that’s going to be coming along here apparently around 2015 or so if I remember right. So for now, I think it might best to get a USB tv stick for my computer (I can get one for about 20 euros), and then take my time learning about these new fangled televisions and what’s the evolution of them is going to be in the next few years. So that I don’t buy a tv that is inadequate in couple of years when HD broadcasts start.
Hmm. Food for though. Once thing’s f0r sure – absolutely not gonna do anything about until autumn. Too hot to learn that stuff now!
I just worry that all my house hold appliances start to break down now – the washing machine is the oldest, the television the second oldest. All the others were bought when I moved here and that was 13 years ago. They don’t build them to last anymore and the next ones I have to buy; I’ll be lucky if they’ll last 5 years I’ve lost count how many of my friends have had to replace machines when they break down about five years after purchase. It seems like they make them to last only until the warranty expires, and then within a year from that, they break down. Just like my previous laptop. The machines should last longer than that! It’s uneconomic and unenviromental to have to replace machines every few years. You’re not supposed to buy a new one every few years (if you have money to do it, which I don’t)!
On the other hand, I’m the kind of person who thinks all machines should last for a long time, the bigger and more expensive it is, the longer. Instead they all, computers, cell phones, washing machines, fridges, they all seem to break down 3-4 after purchase these days. I don’t want to buy that, that’s wasting money. And also, IMO, what you buy, you should use it as long as it works well and fills your needs; you don’t buy a new one just because this one is already 2 years old and doesn’t have all the new toys!
The only things I can see logic buying a new one are computers every few years – and that only if you use programs that new versions can’t run well on a machine that’s a few years old. All but one of my computers I bought because of that. And the one I didn’t buy because of that, I bought because the previous one broke down 2,5 five years after purchase and fixing it would’ve been almost as costly as buying a new one, especially because it had been already repaired three times under warranty. I had planned to think about a new computer at the earliers, 5 years after purchase. But say like Mom and her boyfriend? They don’t use theirs every day, never use anything but internet for e-mail and Word occasionally. They don’t use it even every week. Usage like that? The computer should last for them for the rest of their lives. It’s 3,5 years old and it better not break.
Huh, this post became something of a rant. But I just hate the thought that the next washing machine or television or whatever I need to buy, is more likely to break down soon after the warranty expired than not :<
First off, I’m dealing better with the hot weather than I did the last three summers I guess it’s because the migraine situation is so much better now and all my energy isn’t going to withstanding it. It’s been about three weeks of hot weather now, and today is the first time I feel like I can’t deal with it… just last summer, it would’ve been the third day the latest. I still hate it, but so far I don’t seem to notice it as much as I used to. And today I notice I think because:
<rant>I’m tired – I slept only 2-3 hours last night because some neighbors of mine got up/got in at 4am and talk as loud as it had been in the middle of the day. They continued this until 7am :< I don’t get people like this: I can’t talk outside all my private stuff in voice that anyone who happens be within 50 meters hears every god damn word. Don’t they have need for privacy??????? And even if they don’t, how about being considerate? Just because it’s summer, don’t mean there ain’t people getting up early to go to work and who should be allowed to get their much needed sleep! Assholes.</end rant>
Maybe I should be grateful I’m unemployed? At least I don’t have to deal with the desire to go and strangle the assholes because they’re forcing me to go to work with whopping 3 hours of sleep.
In other news, watched the first episode of Torchwood’s season 4 today. I thought the US version was supposed to be a reboot/reimagining/whatever? But this continued where season 3 left off. Otherwise, I liked it. It was kind of weird though, Torchwood comprised of only two people. I’m happy though, to have another scifi series back on the telly. And heard Falling Skies got renewed and there’ll be season 2. Glad of that too, the shows been nothing special so far, but it’s scifi and and scifi not getting canceled (nearly) always makes me happy I like it so much better than V (2009) when it comes to writing humans – it’s feels like it’s about all of us, even though there’s few characters focused on. This was my problem with V – the human side was supposed to be about all of us humanity, but failed spectacularly in that because they kept the focus too tightly on Erica Falling Skies reminds me of the original V in that sense – these a few key characters, but feels like these characters are part of a community, and there are lives and stories that exist beyond the camera. I never got that feeling about the human side of V – it was all about the very few inviduals: Erica and her pals, although the subject matter required wider scope. So for that alone, Falling Skies feels more real (read: better) to me than the 2009 V ever did.